I dont know if i want to do this anymore. im just siting here and wondering if i should still make more icons or graphics. no one say thank you for makeing icons, ceridt me or my graphis.

I feel like im push a friend away from me. why i dont know. it just im afarid of get hurt again like i did with this girl in teaxs i knew in 15. she change and i try to change for her and be nice to her friends and stuff. but it wasnt me i want to be me as i was before the change. well i told her to pick her friends over her bestfriend since 5. and you know who she pick. the other girl.

So see crys, if you reading this. this why im get scared of our friendship. im afarid you be like her. even i know you wont. but yeah nevermind.

then today on my dad off for the second week of work. i get this email from my brother who in polando and wait does it say. it say my cousin my not walk. why you asked. well it start a couple weeks ago. he got in the hostpail becuase he was in a head on collison with another car. he could have die. but im glad he didnt. i didnt want to losed another cousin i was so closed to. I lost one when he was 18. and i was young but he was my fav. but he was on my dad side. this one is on my mom side. god i dont if i can keep up writing. my tears are already falling from my eyes. i wish i was there next to him. but i cant becuase i have a job and it just im new and cant take a week off yet. plus i need the money. since im going to see danielle next summer i hope if my mom would let me or me and here going to caildorina for a road trip or something.*laughs* who knows.

anyways back to my cousin. well like i said he was on a head on collison. and he broken his leg and arm in two place.and stuck in the hostpail bed for a little he was suposed to be married in august right. but he call that off becuase of this. but today he went to see the docotor to help him walk but he not showing any effot to put strenget to walk. but if i was there he would have try it for me. i wish he know im hthere in sprit not psyhally. that why i havent been my self. im worried about him.

okay enough of that. there another reason im made. it becuase this rummor or orlando and Kate bosworth. i mean come on tell me what you hosting think of this





it like hello the fucking press is confused me. and i wish they would stop. and in orli mouth." i too busy with work and im try to fine a new house" why would he date a no tatlednt actress? that my opion. and watch i get some kate bosworth fans jump on me. fuckl you then. i still she a whore and no tatledn bitch. i never like her. and never will and it not becuse she suposly be him. i hate other stuff about her. i just dont like her period.

okay that all i want to say.